PWRof3D

So there are a couple of things going on right now that are less than fun, and I need to make some changes accordingly to help keep myself going.

First off, you may or may not have heard of Gumroad's policy changes, but what it means is I can effectively no longer sell art packs on Gumroad. I have not been kicked off yet, I have not received any notices about my page being shut down or the end of payouts, but with the new policies around NSFW, it will basically be impossible for me to sell there. For those unaware, no more NSFW content at all: no fetish content, no nudity, nothing. Like I said, my page hasn't been found yet, but there is simply no fighting it: once my page gets flagged, it's over.

I have been trying to find other pages to post my vore packs, but I'm coming up empty handed. Some sites are built for more XXX rated stuff, and I don't feel super comfortable at those sites (especially when most of it is IRL stuff). Another option was Itch.io, but I may run into problems there as they have limits on the number of projects you can upload at once. I do not know where else to post my packs right now, and it will be a serious hit to my income when I lose my Gumroad page.

If you know of any sites I can look into for selling vore packs, comment them below.

The next big hit was taxes. Taxes were especially rough this year, and they're only gonna get worse unless I change how I do my prices. My commission prices will increase as I will have to add a percentage on top for taxes. For anyone who is currently commissioning me, or if I already gave you a quote for a price (even if that quoted price was a few months ago), I won't charge you more. All new commissions going forward will have the tax added.

Lastly, I may be trying to change up my job some. I'm currently working part time, and not only do I absolutely hate it, but I'm not getting paid enough to care. I may shift over into a full time job. This will simply mean less time for art. I hate it, but right now things are just not working for me. I barely broke even over the entire last year, and then taxes came along and decided to knock me back further. I'm hoping the new position will be a little calmer. Nothing is official yet, so it may not work in my favor.

I'm gonna take a bet and say this journal entry/new years resolution isn't going to be as positive as my last few. I know life is hard for a lot of us right now, and if you don't want to get seeped into my own problems, I get that. I try to be this positive rock on the internet, I like the idea that my page is a good place to be to come and forget about the real world for a bit. It's why you don't see too many venting journals or vent art. I have a bad tendency to bottle it up and hide it away. I'm going to let some of it out here. It'll be kinda rambling, I didn't plan this one out that well.

2023 kinda sucked. I did get a job, but it was another dead-end retail job that, at this point, is doing me more harm than good. I never did figure myself out art wise. My posting didn't become more regular, my content didn't really get better. I guess my renders look nicer, but I don't see a ton of progress. I feel like I have flattened out progression wise.

My one claim to success was a mod I released on Steam. It has over 23,000 active subscribers and that number is still growing. I am extremely proud of that mod, and I will give myself a break there.

However, that was the only real accomplishment of the year. Like I said, I have not been consistent at all with my posting or my renders. It's taking me longer to finish renders, which I guess isn't a problem quality wise, but it is making things harder. With that dead-end, part-time-yet-nearly-full-time, retail job, I have had less time to do art. So with art taking longer and less time to do it…it's a losing battle.

My big problem is my time and my goals. I want to get into game development, as either a game designer or a 3D artist. In order to do that, I really need to be dedicating time to non-vore projects, like a game or 3D modeling. However, my job eats up 32 hours a week, or basically 4 full days. I say full days because by the time I factor in the other parts of my day (cooking, driving, showering, whatever), I get maybe 2 hours to myself (if I'm lucky) on a work day. That is hardly enough to work on anything meaningful, so I often spend that time in a simple game before going to bed and doing it all again the next day. With 4 days of that, by the time the weekend comes I just want to relax. I want to play more complicated games that can eat up several long hours of my time. Sometimes I get some art done, depending how I feel, but it is always vore art. I enjoy doing it, and it is providing some much needed money right now. But that fills up my week. Notice how I never said I have the time to do 3D modeling or game dev stuff. I can't find the time or motivation.

I think that problem is 2-fold: motivation and money. I'll start with money: right now I earn about $650 to $700 from Subscribestar each month. I won't count commissions here just because I've been so inconsistent with them over the last few months, but Subscriber income has been steady, and I've come to rely on it. My part time job pays me about $1600 a month. I am in a position where I cannot stop doing one or the other. I would love to quit retail again and do art full time, but I tried that and failed miserably. I burned through my savings until I had almost nothing left. I was so happy doing just art, but I cannot just do art. On the flip side, I feel if I went full time at my retail job and stopped art, I would be less happy and I'd be earning less money. So that is simply not an option I want to pursue. So I'm stuck money wise, I can't stop one thing to get me more time to focus on getting my dream job.

As for motivation, I would love to work on other models and things to progress my game dev portfolio, but there's the issue of finding an audience and maintaining another account. I've been there before, I have 2 'main' accounts; one of which hasn't had an update in several years. I am so bad at social media, I just can't keep up with multiple accounts. Now I need to maintain my vore one, my non-vore one, and a professional portfolio/account? Right now it's just not happening. I know how frustrating it is to start from scratch and make posts that only a handful of people will ever see. It's hard to keep at it. So as much as I want to start working on this game idea that I have, the project has been daunting in itself, plus there's the issue of finding time and motivation to keep going with it.

And above all of this I have this cloud, this sense of overwhelming dread that I am just not good enough. I'm going to be 30 years old this year: I am no where near my dream job, I'm not even in the same ball park, yet I see so many people who are younger than me who are far more talented and they don't have a job. I see people just slightly older than me who have already been in their dream careers for years. What did I miss? How did I not get there? Am I just not good enough? Will I ever be? Should I give up now? I recently watched the Barbie movie and it quite literally broke me. Hearing "What Was I Made For" resonates so hard that I nearly crumble each time.

So, here I am. If it was hard to follow the above paragraphs, you're not alone. My mind is shooting thoughts back and forth so fast and frequently that I can hardly follow it sometimes. Regardless, I'm not very happy right now.

I have a few projects I want to do. I want to continue the little Yalli miniseries I was doing. I got stuck on the story, which is why I don’t have new pages yet. I am working on an incredible story with Dravec and a handful of male prey. It is some of my best work to date. I have several awesome commissions coming up. I thought about doing a vore drive to fund an expensive car repair I'll be getting, I've just struggled with what the rewards would be. I want to make a game. I want to start streaming again. I thought about playing The Long Drive and just talking to people about stuff in chat. I also thought about streaming games like Squad or Hell Let Loose. And art too, of course. It's kinda hard to stream 3D stuff I find. It can be boring, hard to follow, and I've seen my computer drop the stream during intense stuff. I am ready for art, if I can find the time.

I do think I'll reduce my hours at work. I hate the fact the only thing keeping me from full time is 1 day of work. I wouldn't call that part time.

So what's my resolution this year? I don’t know. I rambled out this whole journal just to say I don't really have one. I failed my 2022 and 2023 resolutions. I'd like to say my new resolution is to "be happier", but I feel I'm setting myself up for failure there too.

I'm currently on a vacation, a much needed one at that. During this time I don't have access to my big rendering computer, however I do hope to still be editing some of what I rendered this month and posting items from my still-insane backlog of images.

You can catch up early at Subscribestar. I think I'm behind at least 4 months, and there's some really great stuff.

https://subscribestar.adult/pwrof3d

I'ma do something I've never tried before: a Black Friday sale! All vore packs at gumroad will be 25% off until December 1st.

Use code:

"Digested"

At checkout to get a bite taken out of the price. :3

https://gumroad.com/pwrof3d

Real quick thing before I get started, my graphics card is good now thanks to a big donation by one awesome donor! I know I posted that news to subscribers, but I never got the message out here.

Now onto our regularly scheduled programming:

I just found out today that a few big name vore creators got suspended. I also had one image in my gallery removed by a moderator. It has happened before, and I don't fight those takedowns. I try to learn from what was taken down and tailor my future uploads. The one taken down was Rainy Day 5, which has been out for a while, so I was a little surprised it would get knocked out now. It was a bloody image though, so I guess it was a little too violent.

I'll be a bit pickier about what I post here now. Pickier than I already was. Half the reason I take so long to post here is me trying to figure out the best way to censor an image without ruining it completely.

I'll be very careful about the nude stuff I post here. I will be covering a bit more up than before as a precaution. Unwilling vore will be a bit softer. Alt vore probably won't show up at all. And no blood, hard vore, or post vore will get posted here anymore.

I'm hopeful that I won't get suspended. I've been here for over 10 years, so it would hurt a lot if it happened. I feel a lot of my recent stuff is within the rules though, and I still won't fight take downs when they happen.

But if I suddenly get a slash through my name, theeeeennnn you know what's up.

You can always find the uncensored stuff at Subscribestar.adult: PWRof3D on SubscribeStar.adult

Or even my Furaffinity page: Userpage of PWRof3D -- Fur Affinity [dot] net